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Seed trials & attempting to change a habit.

It’s that time of year

When the seed catalogs arrive one after another

This year, I decided to run some seed trials before placing orders

I still have a fair amount of seeds from when I was farming
But didn’t know if they were viable

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Mammoth red rock cabbage gets composted
Zero germination

However

The alliums, which are said to only have a year viability, did stellar – no doubt due to being kept meticulously cool & dry in multiple baggies tucked in the refrigerator since 2012

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Hell yes

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Even the notoriously fussy shallots germinated well

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Yes yes yes

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Sierra Batavian lettuce did well

Alas the Concept Batavian goes to the compost

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Scarlet Nantes carrots will be seeded in 2015

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Shin Kuroda carrots did fair… Tempting to keep them & seed heavily when planting

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May do one more trial with this carrot…

Was asked by a friend if I was testing the seeds I grew
And I hadn’t yet, but began today with the parsley

Gulp

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I guess I was nervous – it being the first time growing parsley for seed

I’m trying to pay attention to the thoughts in my mind
Since the habit of identifying with the thoughts is SO strong
I’m trying to be mindful of the thinking habits

I could see a procrastination fear habit right in plain sight
Fear of failure.
So don’t even try.
…like if I don’t test it, then I won’t know – that is, I won’t know they won’t germinate

But they might!

Thing is, even if they don’t germinate
I tried
And it was a fun experiment
And I can try again with seeds I purchase in 2015 if need be

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Aren’t they so pretty?
With their stripes?

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Tiny
Parsley seeds are not the tiniest, but they are small

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Handling the seeds released a wonderful bright smell
Bright & bitter

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Let the parsley trials begin!

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A quarter teaspoon to soak in hot water

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And another quarter teaspoon in cool water

Double trial
Why not

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The parsley seed coat contains a chemical which inhibits germination
(Furanocoumarins)
So soaking the seeds (and changing the water twice) can take a week off of the three week germination period…

I wonder if fuanocoumarins could be a natural weed inhibitor…?

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Lots of parsley seeds!

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Onto a sheet of paper for ease of pouring…

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Seed divination, anyone?

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Using the composted seed’s envelopes

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Thank you FedCo seeds of Maine

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dropping the ball, unraveling, & pause.

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this needs to be short

because i need to get home

home to my next, new home.

first night tonight.

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(this is my new flatmate.)

i’ve been dropping the ball.

feels like everything is happening at once.

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sure, i can list the many things that had to get done or that happened this past month and give myself a break.

and while it’s part of my practice to be kind, it’s still challenging for me to offer this sort of kindness towards myself.

the habit is “try to be perfect”

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(whatever that really is)

or at the very least, not make excuses.

but it seems like i’m failing

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*sigh*

i listened to a wonderful podcast from On Being – Krista Tippet interviewing Brene Brown.

she calls it the mid-life unraveling.

i don’t exactly know if that’s what this time in my life is, but i’ll call it that for now.

certainly feels a bit like an unraveling

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(Stanley munching his way through my basket handle)

feels like

i’m a spool of thread

that just ran out, leaving the spool spinning around like a top…

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my point in writing this post is to let folks know who get the daily good morning photo that while i will continue to take the photos, i don’t know when the internet & computer will be set up and ready to go.

so, there will be a pause in the good morning photos.

i’ll bank them, and when the computer is good to go, i’ll post them.

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thanks for reading my blog.

til the next time,

may you be happy.

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