dropping the ball, unraveling, & pause.

this needs to be short

because i need to get home

home to my next, new home.

first night tonight.

(this is my new flatmate.)

i’ve been dropping the ball.

feels like everything is happening at once.

sure, i can list the many things that had to get done or that happened this past month and give myself a break.

and while it’s part of my practice to be kind, it’s still challenging for me to offer this sort of kindness towards myself.

the habit is “try to be perfect”

(whatever that really is)

or at the very least, not make excuses.

but it seems like i’m failing

*sigh*

i listened to a wonderful podcast from On Being – Krista Tippet interviewing Brene Brown.

she calls it the mid-life unraveling.

i don’t exactly know if that’s what this time in my life is, but i’ll call it that for now.

certainly feels a bit like an unraveling

(Stanley munching his way through my basket handle)

feels like

i’m a spool of thread

that just ran out, leaving the spool spinning around like a top…

my point in writing this post is to let folks know who get the daily good morning photo that while i will continue to take the photos, i don’t know when the internet & computer will be set up and ready to go.

so, there will be a pause in the good morning photos.

i’ll bank them, and when the computer is good to go, i’ll post them.

thanks for reading my blog.

til the next time,

may you be happy.